[231] Manifestly I was in such a state of mind; for when I seized a moment of quiet, I did not cease until I had dictated to my boy[185] the speech which a short time before I had delivered with pleasure but which a little later was to cause me distress. For when, after three or four days had elapsed, I was reading and going over it, I found that, while I was not troubled about the things which I had said about Athens (for in everything which had reference to her I had written well and justly),